9/26/2005

clothes talk

I am tired of all my clothes. I keep buying the same stuff over and over again. I have this desire to dress funky and unique. Something between skater-chick, hippie, and prep. I know; those are opposites. That is one of my problems.

Another problem is that I like simplicity too much. I am drawn to the Favorite-Ts at the Gap. If they are on sale, I buy them every time. My closet has various colors of the long-sleeve and short-sleeve versions. Sometimes I layer them with the short-sleeved ones on top. That is about the extent of my "style."

I see girls wearing layered lacy tanks with sparkly shoes. I like that look, but I'd feel like an alien if I wore it. Which leads to another one of my problems. Confidence. I second guess myself when I try new things. One time in aerobics I tried to be cool and wore something out of the ordinary. I could barely do the steps right, because I was so self-consious with all the mirrors. After that I stuck to grey shorts and big white t-shirts. Borrrrring.

Maybe another one of my problems is that I live in Arkansas. This might be a cop-out, but really... we only have a few places to get stuff. Yeah, yeah, I could order from the internet, but that just isn't the same as REALLY shopping.

Today I ventured to the mall and made myself go into a store other than the Gap. I entered Express, determined to find something different. A nice clerk began talking to me. She was five months pregnanct. We exchanged baby pleasantries and then I began the search. I found several shirts with cute sleeves, a little sparkle and slinky material. Fun stuff. Each time I found an item to consider, there were only Smalls and X-Smalls available. What the hell?! Here I am, excited that my boobs are finally on their way down from a DD. I'm feeling good because MIGHT be able to fit into a Large instead of an XL. Good grief. Are there really THAT MANY tiny people out there? Obviously not, because all the big sizes are gone. Errr. (This is a different subject for a different post... sorry.)

I ended up buying a long-sleeve black v-neck. (50% off for $12.50. Not bad.) Along the neckline are understated sparklies and lace. I plan to wear a black tank underneath for added support and coverage. Soon, when I can fit my wide bootie into my date jeans, I'll have a fun, new outfit to show off. If only there were a store in the mall where we could buy Confidence to finish off the new look.

6 comments:

Ellen said...

AMEN, sister. I could have written this post. I have the exact same problems with the way I dress. I wish I had the confidence to get a stylish hairstyle and wear pointy shoes. But I always buy the same thing, over and over.

I am thinking I should do the George Costanza thing and buy the exact opposite of what my gut reaction is. Maybe that would help.

AfricaBleu said...

Can't you buy Confidence on e-bay?

~cjoy said...

Ohh! I WISH I could have shopped with you!! I'd have tried something new, too! Bravo, girl. This is an interesting post considering my "looking for the SAME jeans I bought 10 years ago" one!! I think I may take the challenge and venture out a bit. Even if it's just the appliqued jeans I told you about. . .

In the meantime, maybe we should check e-bay for some Confidence together?? (Good idea, africableu--hope they're not sold out!)

Hillary said...

Oh my goodness! You have described my issue with clothes to a T!!! My clothes are boring boring boring, I'd love to wear sparkly stuff and pointed shoes (I think What Not To Wear is getting through to me!), and sometimes jsut dress more "girly" but I'm afraid to break the mold and be different than what I've always been.

That and everything always seems to be way too small for me. Everything seems to be made for Twiggy and her friends. It's really good for the self esteem when the XLs don't fit. Sheesh!

I'm gonna have to try e-Bay for that confidence, too!

And feel free to call me in to What Not To Wear. Do you think they'll come to Canada???

Hillary said...

Oh my goodness! You have described my issue with clothes to a T!!! My clothes are boring boring boring, I'd love to wear sparkly stuff and pointed shoes (I think What Not To Wear is getting through to me!), and sometimes jsut dress more "girly" but I'm afraid to break the mold and be different than what I've always been.

That and everything always seems to be way too small for me. Everything seems to be made for Twiggy and her friends. It's really good for the self esteem when the XLs don't fit. Sheesh!

I'm gonna have to try e-Bay for that confidence, too!

And feel free to call me in to What Not To Wear. Do you think they'll come to Canada???

Unknown said...

There is a store at that mall in front of jcpenny, I think it is called Rave. I bought something there this summer and I felt so old! The clothes are so young and so was everyone shopping there. But they had all those cute sparkly attractive things. The lady behind the register was older than me but wearing the clothes from the store. So I felt a little better. Of course, she had to wear the clothes, I'm sure...

I bought a top and a pair of pants. I have only worn the top once! So much for sparkly attractive me!

A couple of years ago I found a plain fitted tshirt I liked. I fit so perfectly I went back and bought one in like six different colors. Plain, boring tshirts! But so comfy! That's me. Plain, boring, but comfy!

Sheryll